“O my soul, my soul!
I am pained in my very heart
My heart makes a noise in me
I cannot hold my peace…” -Jeremiah 4:9
Soul, I’m afraid I’ve sold out segments of you…
The receipt lists: ex lovers, big cities and this job that makes sense,
But makes unsettling noise
O my soul,
Why have you my body to choose?
Cruising on the waves of decision
Made my eyes blind to the Lords vision
I took destiny upon myself
My soul giver no longer has my heart
For I’ve given it away in parts
The part that remains,
I search for in pain
Everyday, I awake
Yet, I am in my body dead
If you looked deep enough
You’d see the imprints of those
Who lefts marks on this fossil I call my heart
Their eyes glaring back like a deer in the dark
With lights shining in its face like a race drawing to an end
I never did intend to become a hedonist
I never saw much pleasure in a life like this
The euphoria somehow swallowed my body
And I danced with it
A little bit too long…
A little bit to too close…
To a dangerous song
Hypnotising, black
Making things which once were, seem to all revert back
I need God now more than I ever have…
As I sit and enquire my existence
My soul pleads for a God who unlocks prisons
My life is crowded
With people, passwords, schedules and fleeting time
And a phone,
So smart it knows me better than my own family
I just need God to set me free…
Cleanse me of all my filthy ways
And place me back on the straight and narrow way
These days,
I sit and gaze in the mirror at a body that seems to look familiar
But o my soul
I cease to see you
I cry out for my inner self
To become a true figure
I need God now more than I ever have
But I’ve been a slave to this world
O my soul..
The only prayer I have left within me
Is that the Lord finds you
Before I lose you..
Completely.
beautiful hope 